May 1, 2014

The Cruise


We took an amazing cruise all around the Manhattan island. We got see basically everything you could ever want to see as a tourist and a photographer. For me, taking pictures is sort of like breathing, it's just a fact of life. I'm an introvert. I like to be quiet, I like to observe and watch. Conversing with others feels mostly unnatural, even with the people I feel very close to. And although I want to listen to the conversation, I don't always feel a necessity to add to it, aside from the occasional, "what are we talking about?" Listening is how I contribute, that's what feels good for me. Behind the lense is a perfect home. Sometimes I can capture a moment with a photograph, sometimes I can capture a feeling or a mood. Other times I can miss it entirely because I'm busy trying to trap it in a time capsule, rather than being present. I learned some pretty powerful lessons on this trip, albeit extremely painful ones. Sometimes being quiet is not acceptable to the people around me. Sometimes I have to speak my truth, rather than saving it for myself. I wasn't expecting it, but this adventure turned into a self searching experience, in which I got to know myself better than I wanted to and because of that I'm getting to my God in a way that I've always wanted to. This trip was both the best and the worst experience I think I've ever had. I'm ok with that.

I had a friend, may his memory be always a blessing, who taught me to say thank you for EVERYTHING. Lost your job today? Thank you. Car broke down? Thank you. Got a promotion at work? Thank you. You get the point. The answer is always thank you. Because the truth is, as much as I'd like to be at times, I'm not in charge. Furthermore, I can't see the bigger picture, mostly because I'm not omniscient. And who would really want that anyway? I believe that there is a loving Force in the Universe working in my favor and if I really trust that power like I should, then I know that no matter what is happening and however seemingly off track is feels, I am being taken care of in ways I can't understand. So, thank you.

Have a beautiful day!
MacK Mars

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